rien ne pèse tant
que un secret.

I had almost thirty pages written. I've been bouncing ideas of Jen for a few weeks now and I realized those thirty pages were beyond repair. Well... nothing really is beyond repair, but I saw a door as soon as I realized those thirty pages were a big step up into what I really wanted to write. The premise is not simple - I have to timeline the story and create a family tree but starting over gave me the chance of writing the first four pages (in a ridiculously small font) that came out pretty decently. Enough to satisfy me.

Anne Lamott once wrote that every first draft is shitty. She called it "shitty first draft" and the one thing you have to do, is push that shitty first draft out. So, that's what I'm doing. It became a pretty bad habit with me, however, that as soon as I write a few paragraphs, I go back and edit them instantly. Bad. Bad Ria.

That habit became the downfall of the other stuff I have written down... you know, the stuff that has a beginning, a middle and a discombobulated end that I kinda tossed behind me, thinking that I'll get to it later.

Sigh.

I don't have my notes formally written down - I only have a conversation with Jennifer basically telling her what I want from my characters (I'll let you in on them: Lailah, Suri, Angela, Devin and /name pending, /name pending, /groupname pending and /groupname pending) and from the story. But its a pretty extensive explanation- and I'm happy with it.

Also, I finished The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo again today. I thin the first time I read it was when it first came out. I think I had a different reaction back then. Nonetheless, I think the third book's been gathering dust long enough. I need to get my hands on the second book.